On Fridays Jazz goes to the vet from 8am to 12:00pm for her chemotherapy injection. But while she's gone, I just want her back and keep looking at the clock waiting for noon and the call from the vet so I can pick her up. For four hours the house is empty and quiet. I'm not keeping one eye on the clock so I can let her out, I'm not refilling her water and she's not behind me in the doorway of my office or hinting it's time for her chewy bone and she's not jockeying for position with JP (which can be both frustrating and flattering).
But Dang. I like this dog way too much.
Last February when I lost Maxx it was hard, but the blow was softened a bit because I still had Jazz. As we battle for her health and I'm reminded of her looming mortality I start to become upset and all sorts of feelings cause a lump in my throat. Dang! And I need to literally give my head a shake and tell myself that it hasn't happened yet, and that I must enjoy the present. Why ruin my moments with her now thinking about future emotions?
I have known people who felt that losing their beloved pet was way too painful to ever go through again and they've never owned another. But I've always felt that the years of joy from my pet outweighs the pain of loss. But most importantly when it comes to situations such as this, it helps to remember the good times and to enjoy the moment and put those ugly future thoughts out of your head.
Now, could please give your dog or cat a hug and tell them it's from me?
2 comments:
Can you please pat Jazz for me on the head? KTHNXBAI. :-)
exactly. I know how hard it is for sure to lose a little buddy but it's so nice to know them when you have them it makes it all worth it in the end. Jazz is such a sweetie- she has a wonderful pet mama!
Starr sends her kissies!
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