Sunday, December 01, 2013

I'm a little nervous

Today we have a dance performance and the studio where I have been training for the past 6 months. I never had any intention or desire to be a performer, but somewhere along the train ride, I realized I'd gone too far without saying anything and I couldn't jump off. About 2 weeks ago after a very bad costume sewing experience which caused me to lose my shit and unnecessarily scream at my husband (who's been gracious enough to never talk about it again) - I decided I was going to quit. But I felt I owed it to my fellow dancers to tell them in person. By the end of the class, I still hadn't told them but I stayed behind and had a little talk with my instructor. She did an amazing job talking 'me off the ledge' and thanked me for making the ledge big enough for her to be on it with me so she could talk to me.

So here I am getting ready to perform for an audience of fellow dancers and family members. A 'safe' environment for a newbie performer, but still daunting none the less.

All that I have left to do is my stage makeup - I'm waiting until it's closer to the time because I thought it would be best if it was 'fresh'. Thank goodness for youtube, I spent a good portion of yesterday watching videos learning how to do stage makeup. There sure is a lot to learn before stepping out on a stage before an audience.

So out I go, to 'bust a bra' as we say in the dance world! Wish me luck!


Laoch of Chicago said...

I am sure you did well. It is sad that something you are doing for fun became stressful.

Way Out Wear said...

That's a very good point. We did good. I messed up but it was a learning experience. I just need to learn to smile

Laoch of Chicago said...

I think the secret might be to think about redefining what success might look like.

Kris said...

Good for you for going through with it. I find it way harder to perform for people I know than strangers. I have done acting bits in front of a crowd of 500 strangers, but it is way more scary to do something in a crowd of 20 people when there are people I know in the crowd. Eek!