Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Off Kilter

Lately I've been feeling out of sorts. I don't feel like myself. I don't know what I want. I am doubting most of my being. And as each day goes on, I search my brain for answers - what should I do? what can I change? how should I make each day better?

And one of the other things I have been battle is a very achy body - particularly sore shoulders which I suspect are mostly caused by tug-of-war with my 60 pound dog. I'm sure you're slapping your head wondering why it doesn't occur to me to just stop playing tug-of-war, right? Well that's because it's very hard to be the only one exercising and entertaining a young labrador retriever - especially when it's been raining for several months and you have a full time job. Sometimes the only game she wants to play is tug!

Anyway, tonight I decided that after almost 5 months I'd return to yoga, so off I went to the Recreation Centre for a class last night. I had never managed to get into this class previously as you have to arrive at least 1/2 hour before to get a spot, which I did last night. As well there was a hockey game on (which keeps most people glued to a TV screen of some sort) and it's possible that had something to do with it. The other nice thing is that the class was taught by my previous instructor, Andrea, who I spent almost a year with and feel very comfortable with her. Returning to her class last night, felt like returning home. The familiarity was comforting.

In fact, I believe I am ready to return to classes on a regular basis and also contacted another studio that I had joined in the fall and asked for an update on my pass-card - turns out I have 8 classes left and they don't expire for a while, so I think I'll be returning to yoga again. This feels like a very good thing.

I'm making some other changes for my day-to-day life and have even booked an appointment with my doctor, just to see if some of my symptoms are physical or psychological or stress related or nutritional or other..

I'll let you know how I'm feeling and if I'm improving at all. Any suggestions, please let me know.


Cynthia F said...

Aww I hope you feel better soon. I was feeling a bit that way lately and just have to keep reminding myself to stay centred and do my own thing, follow my heart and make time for me. Stop stretching myself so far and just do what I love for my own sanity. And say no to the things that just don't "do it" for you.

I'm thinking your yoga will be a nice thing just for you!

My Little Corner said...

Hi Cynthia - you are absolutely correct. Thank you!

Laoch of Chicago said...

I hope you are able to find your center and are able to start feeling better soon!

Teena in Toronto said...

Gord loves yoga ... I need to be distracted and more physical.