Monday, March 31, 2014

Monday Morning Contemplation/Lament

Right now I am tired from the weekend, I feel like I've been hit by a car. I don't want to be at work, I want to lounge in bed. My head is still achey - but it's not a migraine anymore. I am conscious that I have created this headache due to work stress, and trying not to get frustrated that I let it take over my Sunday. My weekend. My head aches trying to reason how I should react with a teenage boy who is like a remora in my house. 

I am cold. I don't like being cold. Everything in my body wants me to go back to bed, but here I am. Ready to work. And I will start work and I will plug away and my alarm goes off telling me it's time to take lunch and then I will continue work until it's time to walk the dog. And then it's time to shower and get dressed until it's time to leave for dance. And then I will dance, and laugh and have and forget there is a world outside the studio. And go to bed aching from dance, but this time it's a good and satisfying ache and I will sleep well and start another work day four more times.And then it's the weekend, a chance to get what I want to do. I try again weekend after weekend. Hoping for a do-over every Sunday night.  

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Wow. You have great strength of character to push on. Sadly it seems slightly misdirected. You want to be charged up about EVERYDAY. If you could do that with your work ethic you would SOAR!

"Never continue in a job you don't enjoy. If you're happy in what you're doing, you'll like yourself, you'll have inner peace. And if you have that, along with physical health, you will have had more success than you could possibly have imagined."

-- Johnny Carson


bye

deb

Kris said...

Sounds like dance is a great end to the day. I hope it picks up for you!

Laoch of Chicago said...

Sending you a sympathy hug.

Way Out Wear said...

By the way, yes by the time dance is over I have forgotten about everything else and had a wonderful mental break. I really think I have to schedule practice more often!

Way Out Wear said...

By the way, yes by the time dance is over I have forgotten about everything else and had a wonderful mental break. I really think I have to schedule practice more often!